Sometimes I run out of time in the morning to make the bed.
Sometimes I don’t take the recycling out as often as I should.
Sometimes I just don’t feel like going for a run.
Sometimes (often!) I really want to write a blog post but I just have no idea where to start.
Like many of you I’m sure, I’m always really hard on myself, even when it comes down to the tiny things.
But in the grand scheme of life, do these little things really matter? Does it matter if I can’t fathom the energy to cook today? Does it matter if I would rather watch TV than read a book tonight? Does it matter if I arrived a couple of minutes late to work this morning?
The correct answer is no, it doesn’t matter. In a few days, weeks, months, years time will I care whether or not my apartment was clean on 26th May 2011? Highly doubtful…!
The problem is, every day I carry the weight of all the little things around on my shoulders – I worry and overwhelm my body with additional and completely unnecessary stress. When I’m stressed I lose energy and motivation to do the things that really matter to me.
Like taking time to cook a delicious meal. Relaxing and having a conversation with my boyfriend. Calling my best friend or brother on Skype.
This past week, I’ve been working on letting go. Forgiving myself for the things that don’t matter. I’m learning that attitude is a choice. Rather than wasting away with worry, fear and negativity, I am trying to channel my energy into opportunity, optimism and success.
I’m still a work in progress (this morning I had a mini meltdown over the state of our apartment), but that’s okay. Because tonight I took some time, wrote a blog post and made Tom Yum Soup with coconut rice from scratch and it was delicious.
I didn’t make the bed today. I didn’t take out the recycling. Nor did I go running. So what? I might do it tomorrow, or I might not. It feels very liberating to think this way!
I’m going to continue working on self-forgivement for my personal sanity, and invite you to join me in the spirit of letting go of the guilt and learning to live life worry free!
Forgiveness is the economy of the heart… forgiveness saves the expense of anger, the cost of hatred, the waste of spirits. - Hannah More